Cain, Able and Yourself

The sons of Adam and Eve were equally loved. They were, after all, the very flesh and blood of our famous first-parents.

No father hates his son… unless, of course, that son makes himself an enemy of the father’s own flesh. See, for a mother or a father, a child is loved like their own being. But what about when your own being attacks your own being?

Cain killed Able, as the story goes, out of jealousy and spite.  In turn he was cursed and scorned.  If your right arm develops a mind of its own and attacks your left arm, and then attacks your nose, and then your legs, what do you do?  You cut off your right arm! Even your own being is hated when it hates the rest of your being.

Consider self-loathing and insecurity. Consider how it feels to the one who truly loves you as their own.  When it’s said that you have to love yourself first to be truly loved by another, remember Cain and Able - Adam’s own hating Adam’s own. The one I love hating the one I love, even if it’s self-hate, is like my son hating my other son.


You make me wanna brush my teeth.

Some relationships don’t challenge you.  You can be a total loser and you’ll still be bullet proof.  Quit your job, don’t shower regularly, be rude and disrespectful.  No prob.  You’re with a doormat.  On the other hand, some relationships have to be propped up a bit.  You are challenged so much that by the time you meet the expectations you aren’t even yourself .  For me, a good measure of challenge in a relationship is someone who inspires me to brush my teeth at night.   Anything more difficult than that, and it’s a bad sign.  You’re just working on yourself for someone else’s benefit, and those aren’t sustainable changes.  Be your best you for you.  Maybe pluck that unibrow for someone else, but that’s even pushing it.


Balance

Managing a relationship is like managing a balance in any account.  There’s a bottom line in that human heart, and it’s what you’re worth. It’s true in love.  It’s true in business.  There is always give and take.  Make sure you give more than you take.  You can only play the break-even game for so long before something surprises you.

There are things in a relationship that are like hidden fees.  They cost you, but you don’t know they are being debited.  Maybe she doesn’t make contract terms hard on you, but is actually offended every time your prices are higher than the competition.  Maybe you make up with your lover every night after yelling and screaming, but it’s taking a long-term toll that you’re not counting.  Maybe he can’t stand your best friend and is quietly sacrificing every time he smiles in her presence.  It could be anything.  And it’s just a fact that some accounts come with more fees than others.  Not every realtionship is a “totally free checking with cash back rewards” kind of account.  Some are expensive.  But they have great rates that make them worth it.  You don’t close an account over a transaction.  You just know the cost, the total cost of having it open.  Also, verify your deposits.  Make sure they’re worth what you assumed they were when they actually hit the balance. 

Sometimes you have to write big checks.  It happens.  You cry about an ex.  You parade your sweetheart in an awkward family event.  You need a customer to back you up with his boss.  They are part of why we take companions in life and partners in business, but they are not free.  We can’t always be the givers.  Whatever they are, mind your balance.  Prioritize your deposits.  Know what they’re worth.  Recognize your debits.  Don’t underestimate how much they cost your relationship.  Consistency matters too.  Don’t think you can make up costs with equal deposits after the fact.  When you spend first and pay later, you pay more.  If you take just a little more from your relationship than you’ve put in, even for just a day, all those big expenses can blow up in your face.  One bad check taking the balance below zero, and all your other checks bounce.


You are the Empire

You are the Empire.  Your most capable General is also your most soft-hearted one.  In old age your trusted warlord simply can’t send others to die in your defense.  The place of ruling power you set aside for your General is often forgotten.  The growth, glory and prosperity of the Empire once fought for have yielded to the tired mind of passivity.  Your Commander is too troubled by the suffering of the soldiers to be effective in battle.  Instead of viewing them as necessary sacrifices in the quest for heroic rule, the many are coddled at the expense of the one nation.  The men who would be champions of your General’s fame, have become a shame instead.  Despite hopes to honor the Empire, your General’s malleable character jeopardizes your reign.  The line between conquest and sensitivity is toed delicately every day in the field.  But you need a General who will cut his best man’s throat for the good of the Empire – someone who sees it as an epic, historic purpose in their legacy.  You need a Ruler with a vision for the universe, for eternity.  The Empire must thrive.  Soldiers must suffer, be they your Generals men or another’s. 

You are the Empire.  Your General is your lover.  The soldiers are all the suitors before you.  Who will fall?


Counter Offers

About 80% of employees who accept a counter offer when attempting to resign are not still with that employer after a year.  I bet a similar statistic is true for re-try romances, and probably for similar reasons.  Consider the other 20%.  What would they say?


Love Tax

Taxes are such a pain.  Not only the ones you write a check for.  The unknown, unfelt, uncounted taxes we pay every day hurt us.  (I realize there is a case to be made for how they help.  …beyond our scope here.)  How much tax have you paid on coffee this year?  What about gas?  On your mortgage?  That’s just the stuff you can access.  There is import tax on product you buy from a retailer that you never get to account for. What does tobacco tax do to the price of soy beans?  Ask the farmers who are making crop decisions.  There is an entire matrix of embedded costs that impact our lives at every transaction, be they seen or unseen.  There are no untaxed transactions.

In love and intimacy, there is also a hidden economy.  There are no loopholes, right-offs or exemptions to save you from the inevitability of answering for your ”transactions”.  Every relationship impacts every other.  Your encounters may be insignificant enough at a glance, but none are free.  Perhaps it’s an awkward encounter with some fling while you’re on a legit date with someone else.  Maybe a great prospect inviting you to join a get-together at a place your jealous ex likes to frequent.  Maybe it’s the great emotional spark you make with a person… only to realize their best friend was your last cheap hook-up.  They all have a price.  You may not pay for a while.  You may have to dig to find what it cost you.  You simply don’t have time to track down all the trickle costs of your relationship choices.  There are some consequences you will simply never be able to find no matter how hard you try.  They all cost you.  Every text, every flirtation, every sexual experience, every affection, every lie, every truth, every argument, and every romance – they all impact your bottom line.  Respect yourself.  Respect other people.  When you don’t, the tax burden goes up.


The Opportunity Cost of Opportunity Cost

Whenever someone gives me a task and says, “It will only take five minutes,” I automatically think, “from what?”  That’s five minutes I’m not spending elsewhere.  Is that time better spent, or not? Opportunity cost is the measure of what is given up in pursuit of another interest.  It’s a nearly impossible thing to quantify completely.  Most of us do it instinctively to some degree with every decision we make.  

There are a couple of poor tendencies that can challenge the effectiveness of our instincts.  First, the tendency to doubt your current venture, what you’re pursuing now, leads one to over-value other possible opportunities, be they known or speculative.  This leads to a lack of commitment, over analysis, poor focus and enthusiasm.   The other challenging tendency is to doubt the value of other possible opportunities.  A lack of imagination, confidence or self-worth can keep one from instinctively assuming great opportunity exists outside of a current venture.  This can keep one stuck in a failing effort, afraid to pursue the unknown.

Consider this – the cost of analyzing opportunity cost.  It erodes time, attention, focus, commitment from current ventures.  It takes time and emotion to constantly think, “What else is out there?”  Hesitation comes with a huge cost.  How much?  Not sure.  That’s gonna require more analysis!  In this case the opportunity cost is the failure to make the prospect right in front of you great.  While you’re engaged in a constant analysis of what else is out there, trying to control a projection of infinite possibilities, with infinite variables, with infinite possible changes to the outcome, based on infinite uncontrollable circumstances… well, you’re not pursuing the current given interest with full focus and enthusiasm. Use your instincts!  Check them only against these two things:  Am I confident there are other worthy opportunities?  And, do I clearly understand the worth of my current pursuit?  If you significantly undervalue either, you’re in trouble.  You can question infinitely, analyze into inaction, and commit only to considering alternatives forever. You can get caught in an opportunity cost loop, analyzing speculative nickels until the currency changes.  Or you can trust an instinct.  Decisions have to be made.  Investments have to be made.  Sacrifices have to be made.  Make them.  If you’re unable to act because of opportunity cost analysis, well, then you really have no opportunity at all.

To my faithful readers I don’t need to explain that I’m referring to love as much as business.


Riot

Truth is like a prison riot.  It will ruin some.  It will free others.  It will upset everyone.


Ever Setting

Every morn she comes a smilin,
Not a word o’ where she been.
Every night she leaves me blinded.
She will ten thousand times again.

Each new day she warms me kindly,
Her frigid absence soon forgot.
But in the eve my sun reminds me,
I’m wanting for a bond that’s not.


Monster Match

So you’re not really looking. You just didn’t get around to deleting your profile.  Did you forget, or do you like having an extra line in the water just in case?  Do you like those recruiters calling you just so you know they’re still out there?  Whether in work or in your personal life, if you don’t take some risk in the opportunity you are currently engaged in, you will never be at your best.  At what point do those distractions become the reason your current commitment doesn’t work?  Is it your boss, or your divided loyalty that keeps you from accomplishing something great?  Is it your lover, or your inability to give them your all that makes you insecure in your relationship? 

Try this:  Quit taking recruiter calls.  Quit texting that other attractive person.  Quit turning someone’s advances down with, “I can’t. I’m busy,” and instead say you’re in a committed relationship.  Quit working on your resume and start working on work.  If you don’t commit, you’ll always have another rationale for your failure.  But you won’t really know if it’s a commitment problem until you’re in it 100%.  Whether or not it’s literally Monster.com and Match.com, try pulling yourself off the market completely.  Vest in your commitments openly and fully.  Then see how well it pans out.  Performing at your best in your work or in love is the surest way to protect your success long term, whether it’s in that relationship or the next.


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